The Majesty and Glory of Your Name

I FOUND IT!
The song I mentioned inthe previous post....the song i was listening to Mama pracitice with the choir at Cumberland Pres when Jesus first whispered his love to my heart......
I know this is not the sort of music I normally put on ITB (from 1979), but this sounds just like I remember Mama's choir singing it. Such a sweet memory from my childhood.
OH! How I wish I could still sing! I am grateful to be able to talk and I know that God has blessed me beyond measure....but OH! I wish I could sing!
Enjoy....


When I gaze
Into the night sky
And see the work
Of Your fingers
The moon and stars
Suspended in space
But what is man
That You are mindful of him?
You have given man
A crown of glory and honor
And have made him
A little lower than the angels
You have put him
In charge of all creation
The beasts of the field
The birds of the air
The fish of the sea
But what is man
Oh, what is man
That You are mindful of him?

O Lord, our God
The majesty and glory
Of Your name
Transcends the earth
And fills the heavens
O Lord, our God
Little children praise Him perfectly
And so would we
And so would we
Alleluia, Alleluia
The majesty and glory of Your name
Alleluia, Alleluia

Remember Me

Tonight we had our Good Friday Service at Pearson. The Choir lead worship, Calvin gave a short sermon, and we had the Lord's Supper.

I have, over the past few years, found it increasingly difficult to watch portrayals of my Lord's crucifixion. Tonight it was almost unbearable. To think that Jesus would willingly subject Himself to such torture is more than I will ever be able to understand. To know that He did it for me is overwhelming. I am so underserving. I am so ungrateful of His sacrifice. He knew i would be, and He did it anyway. He knew that it would take me a lifetime to learn to live for Him, but He sacrificed himself anyway. He knew that I would make terrible choices and that I would be a lousy representation of his name.....but He allows me to bear His name all the same. Christian....Little Christ.... Daughter of the Most HIgh God.

Tonight as the choir sang and the video of the Crucifixion played, I was shaken to the core.The Lord of all creation,,,,maker of Heaven and earth....God of ALL... chose to die for me. FOR ME.

Calvin asked what did Jesus want the 12 to rember when He told them to "Do this in Rememberance of Me" at the Last Supper....for they had not yet experienced the Cross and Resurection.

"Remember Me"... easier to do in church on Good Friday than it is in the line at Wal Mart...or when we have a TERRIBLE waitress at a restaurant...or when my kids are making me crazy...or when my dear sweet hubby is srtomping on my very last nerve....or when I am beating my head against the wall because another woman in my life just will not accept the freedom Christ offers.......

It is easy to Remember Christ on Good Friday in church.....or late at night when the family is asleep and the only sound is the tap tapping of my keyboard.

Oh Lord! I do remember you! i remeber the night we first met. Lying on the front pew while Mama lead choir practice....What was the name of that song? The Majesty and Glory of Your name? "When I gaze  into the night sky and see the work of your fingers......who is man that You are mindful of him?" Oh Lord! I do remember! I remember how it felt in my oh so young heart to wonder "Could the same God who put the stars in place REALLY know ME? And if He knows me, could it be true that He CARES about me?" I remember the smell in Brother Shauf's office and the calming sound of his voice as he explained Salvation to me and the gentle touch of his hand as he wiped my tears.

Unfortunately, i also remember what it was like to be far from you....or was I? Even in my most rebellious moments, I belive you were nearby, never letting me slip completely from your hand.

I remember sitting in Tom's office and realizing for the first time the possibility that You not only COULD still love me, but that You DID still love me. Oh Father! I remember! I remember what it felt like to return to you!

Thank you. A million times thank you. Thank you for loving me so much that you sacrificed your life in order that I could have Salvation. Thank you for never letting go of me, even when I thought I wanted you to.

Lord, thank you for allowing me the priviledge of serving you. Thank you for entrusting Calvin, Brian, and Izzy to me. Help me Lord to show YOUR love to them. Help me to be sensitive to Calvin's needs and to care for him so that he can care for your church.

Thank you Lord Jesus for the cross. Thank you for taking my place and for dying for my sin.

I do Remember.....

K

I do have a brain afterall

So I had a MRI / Brain scan thing on Monday. Seems that the good Doctor S would not give me another round of migrain meds unless I agreed to see a Neurologist and make sure that we didn't have anything sinister causing my sudden esclation in headaches. (Anyone ever heard of STRESS?)
Anyway, went to see the neurologist. Failed one of his tests. Since I have had cancer in my neck, i need an MRI....blah blah blah....
Had the MRI on Monday at lunch.
Here's our e-mail "conversation".....

Are you going to get a copy of the MRI results?
I am going back to Dr Wolfe on the 12th.
Do I need to tell him to send the results to you?
Will he give me a pic of my brain (assuming they found one)?
I mean, if I ASK him.is that an unrealistic request?
I sure do like the good folks at the Otolaryngology and whatever it is clinic a lot better than the folks down in neurology...
Guess they don't know that I am supposed to be their favorite patient! Ha ha ha
Have a great day!
K



Sure, you can ask them to send the results to me. I'm curious to see what (if anything) is up there....

John M. Schweinfurth, M.D.
Professor
Department of Otolaryngology


Sooo I understand that you have access to the MRI since I had it done at UMC..



Why don't you check it out for me???? Just take a little peek. Make sure everything is okay..ya know..have a brain and nothing else in there.


I know that we are all most certain that there is nothing wrong with my brain, but would rather NOT go in to see Dr Wolfe on the 12th and him say "I really had no idea." Not a big fan of the "the tests did not come back like we expected" speech. I know we have this long term thing going on, but I am not planning on being chummy with any other doctors.
I know the chances are super slim.but it seems that I have a tendency to be in the 1 in a million club as of late. I'm tired of that club. Maybe I can get my name taken off the membership roll.
I don't know what exactly I hope to accomplish by you looking at it other than that I trust that if something IS outta whack, you MIGHT be able to persuade them to see me sooner. (Although I WAS supposed to go in tomorrow.but have to be in Birmingham and had to reschedule) I suppose it would just make me feel better if you know what the results are, even if I don't.
Besides, Dr Wolfe told me I just needed a glass of Scotch and a good Cuban cigar. Perhaps he was not listening to the part about cancer in my throat being the reason we were looking at my head in the first place..ha ha


See ya in a few weeks
K




Much to my surprise, you have a brain, it appears to be normal sized, AND it's otherwise completely normal! My guess is that you brought someone else in to sub for you....

John M. Schweinfurth, M.D.
Professor
Department of Otolaryngology


And so it goes between me and the good Doctor.

I will be SO glad when I am not nervous about every little test anymore. I will be so glad when "what if" does not cross my mind.

DOn't get me wrong, I am not "afraid" If there was something growing in my head causing the headaches, I would face it....sitting right in Jesus' lap...crying on His soulder a good bit of the time. I am glad that Doc let meknow that everything is okay, just like we thought and I am glad to know for sure rather than guessing.

Perhaps if i was totally over this and didn't have these little hiccups from time to time, i would forget to lean on Jesus. Maybe I would forget how he carried me through my cancer journey. Maybe.

All I know is that I am eternally grateful that I knew Jesus before I got cancer and that I loved him before I got cancer so that my natural resopnse to such a trying time was to lean heavily on my Lord!

Hugs!
K

Hurricane

I have built a city here,
half with pride and half with fear,
I just wanted a safer place to hide,
I don't wanna be safe tonight.

(Chorus)
I need you like a hurricane,
thunder crashing wind and rain,
to tear my walls down,
I'm only yours now.
I need you like a burning flame,

wild fire untamed,
to burn these walls down,
I'm only yours now,
I'm only yours now.

I am yours and you are mine,
You know far better than I,
And if destruction's what I need,
Then I'll recieve it Lord from Thee,
Yes, I'll recieve it Lord from Thee.
(Chorus)

And it's your eye in the storm,
watching over me,
and its your eye in the storm,
wanting only good from me,
and if you are the war,
let me be your casualty,
til I'm yours alone, I am only yours.
I am yours alone, Lord.
~ Jimmy Needham

Oh my goodness! I finally HEARD the words to this song on the wa to church this morning and...WOW! I cannot wait to share it with the FLO girls tonight! OH LORD! I do indeed need you like a Hurricane!

My thoughts are scrambled. My sweet friend Sherry will most likely lose her Husband to Heaven today. Praying with her onthe phone, I asked God to give her the strength to let him go. OH! How hard that would be!
So, instead of trying to make sense of the many many different ideas banging around in my head and heart this afternoon, I'll add the Hurricane video.
This is my prayer....
Lord, I do need you like a Hurricane. Tear down the walls that keep me from you.
If destruction is what I need to get you to where you want me to be, then send it.
I trust you.

Sunday Morning Prayer

Lord, ther are so many distractions in Sunday, especially for those of us that serve. Not only are there children to bathe and dress, myself to bathe and dress, and a sweet husband to get out the door, but there are other things that distract me. I am sure that i am not the only one who has trouble clearing my mind on Sunday Morning, even if my distractions are different than others'.

Lord, I pray that my friend A. is there today. God, I cannot imagine the battle she is fighting. Be with her. Make our presence known to her in a very real and tangible way.

Comfort sweet M. as he waits to join you in Heaven and, Father God, please comfort precious S. as she prepares to let him go.

Be with B. and A. as they prepare to come home from this round of Chemo and face bone marrow transplant in the not too distant future.

Lord there are so many that need a touch from you. I cannot begin to wrap my brain around the sheer number of prople that are hurting and in desperate need of your touch. You know who they are Lord and you know what they need. Please wrap your arms around them and let them know that you are with them, that you have a plan and a purpose for their lives and that you are in contol at all times.

Lord, Be with the ones teaching Sunday School this morning. Let them be sensitive to your spirit and allow you to speak through them.

Be with Calvin and all of your pastors as they prepare to deliver your Word. Please put a hedge around them so that they are not discouraged and disheartned by complaining and such this morning. Protect them, fill them up and give them courage to speak your truths clearly, firmly, and lovingly.

Please speak to the worship leaders and musicians involved in this morning services. Lord, again, put a hedge around them and protect them from gossip, complaining, and procrastination. Please do not allow that little things to irritate them this morning.

Finally, meet with us Lord. In "Big Church", in Children's worship, and in Preschool worship, make your presence known. I love You Lord and I want to want nothing more than to worship you and bask in your presence this morning!

Your adoring child,

K