I've taken a break from... lots of things so far in 2020... but i'm still around.
I'm trying to be more present in the moment... and this is harder than I expected.
I've cut out some things/tasks to make room for people and have found this to be quite enjoyable.
One of the things I cut was writing. To be fair, I miss it... but with the new job came more responsibility and less time to ponder... so I've had less time to think about things to write.
That being said... I really do miss it.
I miss the freedom that writing provides. I miss the forgiveness writing offers... even more so than painting, writing offers me the chance to change things until I am satisfied that my words reflect exactly the thought/emotion/idea/feeling I want them to. I've missed the functionality of choosing the right word or phrase to construct a word picture of what's in my head and heart. I've missed the release that vomiting words onto a page/screen offers. So many times...most times... I just spew words until I have no more words. Then I go back and clean it all up so that (hopefully) the words make sense. Sometimes I just delete everything... and that in itself is also very freeing.
So, here I am, back at the keyboard. It may take me a minute to get back in the groove of sharing my thoughts. They have been bottled up for 3 months now. This year's posts may take on a different feel... cause I FEEL things other than hurt, fear, and panic for the first time in a LONG time. i don't have a closet of internal baggage to unpack. I don't have any medical (or mental or emotional) issues that need sorting thru. Everything is quite bland and uneventful compared to the past 12 years. I actually feel GOOD... normal... stable... so rather than try to jump into something serious today, I'm just gonna share this year's resolutions.
Resolutions for 2020
big hugs!
K
I'm trying to be more present in the moment... and this is harder than I expected.
I've cut out some things/tasks to make room for people and have found this to be quite enjoyable.
One of the things I cut was writing. To be fair, I miss it... but with the new job came more responsibility and less time to ponder... so I've had less time to think about things to write.
That being said... I really do miss it.
I miss the freedom that writing provides. I miss the forgiveness writing offers... even more so than painting, writing offers me the chance to change things until I am satisfied that my words reflect exactly the thought/emotion/idea/feeling I want them to. I've missed the functionality of choosing the right word or phrase to construct a word picture of what's in my head and heart. I've missed the release that vomiting words onto a page/screen offers. So many times...most times... I just spew words until I have no more words. Then I go back and clean it all up so that (hopefully) the words make sense. Sometimes I just delete everything... and that in itself is also very freeing.
So, here I am, back at the keyboard. It may take me a minute to get back in the groove of sharing my thoughts. They have been bottled up for 3 months now. This year's posts may take on a different feel... cause I FEEL things other than hurt, fear, and panic for the first time in a LONG time. i don't have a closet of internal baggage to unpack. I don't have any medical (or mental or emotional) issues that need sorting thru. Everything is quite bland and uneventful compared to the past 12 years. I actually feel GOOD... normal... stable... so rather than try to jump into something serious today, I'm just gonna share this year's resolutions.
Resolutions for 2020
- Be Adventurous
- Be more Rested, Relaxed and Restored
- Be Mentally and Emotionally Healthy
- Be a Thoughtful Gift Giver
- Be Financially Responsible
- Be a Great Housekeeper
- Be a Morning Person
- Be Physically toned and Strong
- Be Intentional
big hugs!
K
