I just can't wait til Wednesday....
Woo Hoo! Back on track! Lost a pound this week. Granted, I’d
like to have lost 2 or 3, but considering all the stress I’ve been under, I am
super over the top excited to have lost one!
Now, the biggest obstacle I have right now is the gym. UGH!
SOOOOOOO intimidating for a fat chick. I am not so prideful as to think that
anyone in the gym actually pays attention to me…it’s not that. It’s ME…MY mind
constantly comparing myself to others. And yes I know, the ONLY way to get from
where I am to where they are is to GO TO THE GYM. I get it. I do. Really. It
just STINKS right now.
But I know that working out will jump start my weight loss
and will help me have a body I actually LIKE when this weight DOES finally come
off.
SO, the goal for the rest of this week….work out.
I’ll let ya know how it goes….
On to other things…
I have been so obsessed with this whole weight loss thing
that I forgot how full and rich my life is. A total random encounter reminded
me that I am BLESSED. Someone saw the article about me and Doc Schweinfurth on
my Instagram and let me know that he thought that I have a good story.
Know what? I DO have a GREAT story! It is soooo easy to get
bogged down in…well, in life. Things are really stressful right now and it is
easy to focus on those things causing my chest to ache all day. Thing is, I KNOW
that this season will pass and I will likely forget how I feel today.
When things aren’t going the way I’d like, it is beneficial
for me to stop and remember the many ways God has delivered me in the past. Not
only do I have all the stories from Scripture to claim, but He has delivered ME
personally on many occasions! Time and time again He works things out for my
good. Time and time again, He restores me, refines me, and refreshes my soul.
He has walked with me through the valley more times than I like, but He never
made me walk alone. Since I’ve known and followed Him, I have never been alone.
He has always guided and directed me.
Anyway, I want to try and get back in the groove of sharing
who I am and what God is doing in me more often. I don’t want to just write
about whether or not I feel like I lost enough weight each week! Haha That’s
just now what I’m about. It was soooo much easier to share my heart when I was
sick. It is easy to be transparent about cancer and all the emotions that come
with it. The daily stuff…the stuff that regularly kicks me in the teeth…that
stuff is harder to write about. I suppose that’s Satan’s way of keeping me
quiet because not everyone has cancer…but everyone has bad days, more month
than money, and more laundry than time. Everyone loses their temper, fails to
control their tongue, and finds themselves doing the very thing they said they
never would.
Life is hard, but God is GOOD and my life is such a beautiful
picture of this.
Today, thinking back over my life, Genesis 50:20 comes to
mind:
As for you, you meant evil against me, but GOD meant it for
GOOD, in order to bring about this present result, the saving of many lives.
Not sure that many lives will be saved because of my story,
but I do know that the things that were meant to break me and cripple me and
turn me into someone filled with hate and anger and bitterness only drew me
closer to my Savior, softened my heart toward those who need the healing touch
of Jesus and helped me to see God’s hand at work in my life and in the lives of
those I love. So, I totally claim “You meant evil against me, but God meant it
for GOOD” because I am BETTER for all the heartache, all the pain, all the
struggle. God grew me through the hard times and I am so thankful for them!
Hugs to you!
K
