Monday, March 9, 2009

Where we are

Went to see the Good Dr Schweinfurth on the 2nd. It was a good visit... By far Calvin's favorite. Dr S said that everything about me is "completely bizarre". Calvin said "Can I have that in writing?" Dr S also referred to my "condition" as "That Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde thing you have going on".....fun stuff. Quite the comedian, my doctor.

On a serious note, it seems that I misunderstood what was going on regarding the cancer and Carcinoma in Situ. I THINK that rather than the CIS progressing to Invasive Carcinoma, what actually was happening was in two totally different areas. The reason I say this is because Dr S said that he has never seen someone test positive for CIS, negative for CIS, and then positive for CIS. The cancer cells are gone. There were only 40 of them anyway....40 out of several billion (or is it trillion) doesn't sound so bad. Anyway, he biopsied a lot more tissue this time and only came back with the CIS, which is in the same place it was before...i think.

He scolded me for whispering....Calvin ratted me out. But I ask you...Have you ever tired to communicate with a 3 year old and NOT talk???? I mean really. We are ALL getting very tired of the whole "mom can't talk" thing! My 9 yr old has gotten very good at answering my cell phone and saying "I'm sorry, my mom had cancer removed from her vocal cords and cannot talk. Can I give her a message?" the people who actually know me have gotten very good at talking to me on the phone thru Brian. He is a blessing, that's for sure.

Izzy is doing better than I had really expected. We are having some of the same behavior problems we had when I had the 1st surgery, when I couldn't talk for a month. Thankfully this time it is just few more days! I can start talking on the 12th and I cannot wait!

I did e-mail Dr S and mentioned to him that my "voice" sounds different than before when I clear my throat, cough, etc. He said to be patient. At that point I was only a week out of surgery and his exact words were "Helloooo! It's only been a week". Like I said, Dr S is quite the funny guy! Cracks me up really...sarcasm loves company.

Oh! and when I was in to see him on the 2nd, he said "We're going to be good friends for at least the next year." I'll be seeing him once a month for at least a year and having surgeries...

oh yeah, we are back to square one with the surgeries. I will have surgery every 6 weeks or so until we get a clean biopsy. At least it isn't radiation or Chemo! The surgeries aren't that bad. 2 weeks of no talking and I am good as new...until the next time anyway.

That's all I have for now....just waiting to be able to talk again so that things can get back to normal.

My incision is healing well. The scar is not going to be a big deal at all. Izzy checks it every day for me and faithfully tells me "It is not so red today Mommy". Occasionally she will kiss it so it will get better.

Hugs to all!
K