Well I didn't post last week because I was furious with myself.
I gained another pound and really felt like a huge failure.
All those self-sabotaging thoughts hit me like a hurricane...
"What's the use?"
"You ALWAYS do this"
"You are a failure"
"You will always be fat"
Then something clicked- I don't know exactly how or when it happened. I made a decision. Simply put, I decided to try one more time.
I did everything right. Counted my points. Thought about what I was going to eat. Planned my meals. Drank lots of water. No Soft Drinks. Very little sugar. Almost no bread. No chips. No junk. Just ate when i was hungry and stopped when i was satisfied.
I didn't exercise.
I lost 9.6 pounds.
In ONE WEEK!!!!!!
So I am super pumped.
Been to the gym every day this week. 45 min on the elliptical plus strength training. I dread going to the gym, I hate it while I'm there, and I'm sore in places I didn't know could be sore, but every time I push through to the end of a workout I am so proud of myself...and that's all that matters, because I'm finally just doing this for me. Maybe that's why it's working.
Still eating the same as last week.
I'm interested to see if i will have 2 big losses in a row.
Oh! I also took on the Burpee challenge at the urging of a friend. Started with one burpee the first day, and add one more each day for 100 days.
So here's the best part of all this...I FEEL good. I feel confident. Well, more than usual. I'm proud of myself for not quitting and for not listening to the voices in my head that tell me i don't deserve this and that i can't do it.
I'll check back in next week!