Wednesday Weigh-In: My Battle with Food, Exercise, and Body Image

Self-Sabotage

“Behavior is said to be self-sabotaging when it creates problems and interferes with long-standing goals. The most common self-sabotaging behaviors are procrastination, self-medication with drugs or alcohol, comfort eating, and forms of self-injury such as cutting. These acts may seem helpful in the moment, but they ultimately undermine us, especially when we engage in them repeatedly.”

I guess that I might as well go ahead and deal with this on the front end. (sigh)

I can’t even tell you how many times I do this. I KNOW what I want, what will make me happy, and what causes me stress and anxiety. It’s not like “I think that maybe being overweight makes me unhappy.” I KNOW it does. I KNOW that I would be more at peace with myself if I were a healthy weight.

So, as soon as I decided to share this journey with you, my sugar craving went into over-drive and I have had an insatiable appetite. It’s CRAZY! I’ve snacked late at night, eaten past the point of being full, and had WAY too much sugar. oh... and no exercise. None.

Obviously, I haven’t lost any weight.

I do so many things that don’t make sense. Overeating when I want to be thin is just one of them. I hope that by dealing with this one area, I will learn how to deal with the others.

Thing is, I KNOW how silly this is. I mean really, how hard is it to NOT overeat? How hard is it to get some exercise? How hard is it to eat healthy foods?  I mean really, it can't be that hard. Even so, I look around me and I realize that I am totally not the only one who struggles with this. I hope that in sharing my journey others will be encouraged.

This week my goal is to identify the ways I sabotage myself. I want to get beyond the general, surface level "I ate too much sugar" to the WHY...Why did I over eat? What triggered it? What was I thinking when I overate? What lies am I believing about food and my body?

So, the weigh in for today…

• 251.8 lbs
• Size 2X shrts and Jackets
• Size 16 plus pants
• The plan – Step one – eliminate added sugar from my diet
• Will get before pic and measurements before next week.

Until next Wednesday,

K