Monday, February 29, 2016

6 month check up

Well… Here we are again.

I go see Doc tomorrow. Of course I am fine. There are no troubles with my voice. I sang yesterday morning in church, practiced with the praise team, and then went to choir practice yesterday afternoon and I’m not even hoarse today.
It is hard to believe that I will hit the 5 year milestone in August. Just 6 more months and I will officially be in the clear.
But for today, tomorrow’s visit is hanging over me like a weight. The anxiety is completely irrational. I know that I am fine. Even so, my chest hurts.
Anxiety is a real pain.
I wish that I was strong enough in my faith to not have anxiety. I’ve read that worry is the opposite of faith. That makes me sad. I don’t try to worry. I don’t dwell on things that cause me concern. There are certain things that cause me to feel almost paralyzed though. Going to see Doc is one of those things. Whether I want to or not, I feel tremendous anxiety over it.
It seems that the only times anxiety is not crushing my chest lately are when I am asleep or on the elliptical. So, I am going to the gym and staying on the elliptical until I can’t do anymore. Hopefully that will make me tired enough to go on to sleep at a decent hour and stay asleep until morning.
Then it will be over until August.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

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What competes with Christ for your attention and affection?

I am guilty of letting things…mostly good things…draw my affection from my Savior. I don’t like to admit it.  It is embarrassing and humbling to be reminded that Satan still deceives me.  Oftentimes I am not even aware that he is working on me until sin causes unrest in my soul.
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